Sunday, December 9, 2012 ' 7:26 AM
9.12.2012_Sunday_1104pm
When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we've had been through
Even though we're far apart right now
I remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete
But now I'm left alone
We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you
[Chorus]
Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'd love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you
I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies
im breakingdown as normal..
E pain was too deep to be ease..
Must i really learn to visualize tat in tis world
there is nothing called "True" ?
No "True love" ?
"True" tis words seems soo far away..
Time for me to gif up hope.. and stand back again to e playground..
LOVE is e dangerous playground ever~
i burnt myself i hurt myself but yet still i wana get myself into tis playground..
Bcos it can be soo wonderful at times.. Sweet moments.. Happy..
x3JesJes_1124pm
When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we've had been through
Even though we're far apart right now
I remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete
But now I'm left alone
We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you
[Chorus]
Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'd love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you
I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies
im breakingdown as normal..
E pain was too deep to be ease..
Must i really learn to visualize tat in tis world
there is nothing called "True" ?
No "True love" ?
"True" tis words seems soo far away..
Time for me to gif up hope.. and stand back again to e playground..
LOVE is e dangerous playground ever~
i burnt myself i hurt myself but yet still i wana get myself into tis playground..
Bcos it can be soo wonderful at times.. Sweet moments.. Happy..
x3JesJes_1124pm
She ends @
Sunday, December 2, 2012 ' 5:29 AM
2.12.2012_Sunday_0910pm
Hees~ Im back Bloggy~ Im rather regular hors recently?..
Finally today i feel abit of myself comin back..
Im soo happy! Lookin at e mirror.. i really looked sick..
But im gonna recover real soon.. Becos i Love myself~! I love my frens~!
i dun wana rely on medicine.. Slowly Slowly i can..
=P Once im standing back again.. My world doesn't need uu anymore~
i will cry lesser.. e lesser i cry.. Our relationship is ending..
Every1 scolded me for being silly.. i've yet wake up..
Love being silly maybe.. Love ur lies and everything..
if im gone.. one day.. Dun regret.. Bcos i wun be back..
By den pls take really good cares of urself..
Im lettin everythin goes.. Bcos of tis sickness..
Im clear im afraid of it.. and im scare..
But uu r not even around.. im facin it all alone..
Soo if i ever get well.. i dun think i needed uu too..
I had enough of tis kind of nonsense.. For years i had been stupid enough..
Could we stop?.. Stop hurtin me..
Hahas~ we shouldn't haf even started.. *Bleahs*
i owe uu de bahs last life..
i think i returned everythin i owed lers bahs..
Im jus 24 tis yr.. i should haf lots of fun in my life..
but it's okiies.. becos suffer 1st den i will earn sweet..
Thanks becos my life is sufferin enough now..
Uu will nehber get to see my blog..!
i swear! even if uu sees it.. i dun even cares already.. =D
x3JesJes_0928pm
Hees~ Im back Bloggy~ Im rather regular hors recently?..
Finally today i feel abit of myself comin back..
Im soo happy! Lookin at e mirror.. i really looked sick..
But im gonna recover real soon.. Becos i Love myself~! I love my frens~!
i dun wana rely on medicine.. Slowly Slowly i can..
=P Once im standing back again.. My world doesn't need uu anymore~
i will cry lesser.. e lesser i cry.. Our relationship is ending..
Every1 scolded me for being silly.. i've yet wake up..
Love being silly maybe.. Love ur lies and everything..
if im gone.. one day.. Dun regret.. Bcos i wun be back..
By den pls take really good cares of urself..
Im lettin everythin goes.. Bcos of tis sickness..
Im clear im afraid of it.. and im scare..
But uu r not even around.. im facin it all alone..
Soo if i ever get well.. i dun think i needed uu too..
I had enough of tis kind of nonsense.. For years i had been stupid enough..
Could we stop?.. Stop hurtin me..
Hahas~ we shouldn't haf even started.. *Bleahs*
i owe uu de bahs last life..
i think i returned everythin i owed lers bahs..
Im jus 24 tis yr.. i should haf lots of fun in my life..
but it's okiies.. becos suffer 1st den i will earn sweet..
Thanks becos my life is sufferin enough now..
Uu will nehber get to see my blog..!
i swear! even if uu sees it.. i dun even cares already.. =D
x3JesJes_0928pm
She ends @
Saturday, December 1, 2012 ' 7:55 AM
1.12.2012_Saturday_1143pm
Sheng Bing de wo yi dian ye bu hao shou..
Yi tian bi yi tian shou lers.. Hao kai xin..
But.. i think i kana Yan Shi Zheng..
Eat wat oso feels disgusting.. and i will vomit.. diarrhoea..
Wat a life.. i feels tired seriously tired for tis 5mths..
Keep stayin clear in mind.. tat i dun wana die.. Becos i've got a group of cutes frens..
But i dunno stay on for wat..
i dun haf goals to stay on..
Im mentally sick.. i wana stand back again..
But still tearing every single days..
Seeing myself feels soo pathatic.. hmms..
How long i nv laugh le?.. i cannot rmb..
i needed to stop myself for a moment..
i needed to be alone for a moment..
i needed to think it all over again..
x3JesJes_1155pm
Sheng Bing de wo yi dian ye bu hao shou..
Yi tian bi yi tian shou lers.. Hao kai xin..
But.. i think i kana Yan Shi Zheng..
Eat wat oso feels disgusting.. and i will vomit.. diarrhoea..
Wat a life.. i feels tired seriously tired for tis 5mths..
Keep stayin clear in mind.. tat i dun wana die.. Becos i've got a group of cutes frens..
But i dunno stay on for wat..
i dun haf goals to stay on..
Im mentally sick.. i wana stand back again..
But still tearing every single days..
Seeing myself feels soo pathatic.. hmms..
How long i nv laugh le?.. i cannot rmb..
i needed to stop myself for a moment..
i needed to be alone for a moment..
i needed to think it all over again..
x3JesJes_1155pm
She ends @
Thursday, November 29, 2012 ' 5:39 AM
29.11.2012_Thursday_0908pm
After almost a month and im back..
i haben stop tearing every single day..
i hate takin medicine everyday..
But too bad becos im weak tis time round..
i got myself into depression stage.. who can i blame bcos im e stupid 1?..
When will i recover?.. Every1 is waitin for e old me to come back again..
M i ready?.. Ready to come back as e pass JES?..
i've got no confidence to stop tearing.. But i can act as happy as i am s usual?..
i getting no further tougher anymore.. e more im gettin is weaker..
My mentally tired is bringin me down..
I WAN MYSELF BACK PLS! RETURN MYSELF BACK TO ME!
i hate e feeling.. Soo empty till i feel afraid..
Afraid of NIGHTs.. Which i used to love party at NIGHTs..
Nobody noes at home regarding to my conditions..
i dunno how long i have to face it myself..
i miss my baby.. becos i kept rmbing how it feels inside..
Tis guilty is killing me.. i noe i have to face e facts..
Who can i turn to?.. Tis is e onli place when i got no1 to turn to..
Tis is e onli place i can be myself.. Tearin infront of my lappy..
Tokin nonsense to myself.. Ask myself to wake up..
I read some of my blogs backs in 2009..
inside of me tellin myself..
now 2012 and yet im still s stupid as ever..
i still belief in wat he told me..
and tis is wat i get in e end.. and wher is he?..
BASTARD~ and im a stupid bitch..
When will i ever learn to be clever?..
What am i suppose to do now?.. To stop crying and feeling empty and afraid of nights..
Doc told me it takes time.. but it still all in my mind..
if im negative enough i wun recover.. God Damn It..~
Soo how to stay Positive?.. When my frens are all in e catergories "Crazy" and "Negative"..!
Which i post on my FB status and get scoldin from all of dem.. =X
They r e best seriously~ I always noe tat they standby me.. Mentally..
I can feel how much they loved me~ As they really cares~
Im tryin hard to stand up again oso becos of all tis cute frens..
I dun belief im e weak 1.. I dun wana get defeated..
Im begging to let me stand again.. One more time..
i will become stronger den ever.. and i wun be stupid again..
......... Time for medicine and i should sleep already..
x3JesJes_0938pm
After almost a month and im back..
i haben stop tearing every single day..
i hate takin medicine everyday..
But too bad becos im weak tis time round..
i got myself into depression stage.. who can i blame bcos im e stupid 1?..
When will i recover?.. Every1 is waitin for e old me to come back again..
M i ready?.. Ready to come back as e pass JES?..
i've got no confidence to stop tearing.. But i can act as happy as i am s usual?..
i getting no further tougher anymore.. e more im gettin is weaker..
My mentally tired is bringin me down..
I WAN MYSELF BACK PLS! RETURN MYSELF BACK TO ME!
i hate e feeling.. Soo empty till i feel afraid..
Afraid of NIGHTs.. Which i used to love party at NIGHTs..
Nobody noes at home regarding to my conditions..
i dunno how long i have to face it myself..
i miss my baby.. becos i kept rmbing how it feels inside..
Tis guilty is killing me.. i noe i have to face e facts..
Who can i turn to?.. Tis is e onli place when i got no1 to turn to..
Tis is e onli place i can be myself.. Tearin infront of my lappy..
Tokin nonsense to myself.. Ask myself to wake up..
I read some of my blogs backs in 2009..
inside of me tellin myself..
now 2012 and yet im still s stupid as ever..
i still belief in wat he told me..
and tis is wat i get in e end.. and wher is he?..
BASTARD~ and im a stupid bitch..
When will i ever learn to be clever?..
What am i suppose to do now?.. To stop crying and feeling empty and afraid of nights..
Doc told me it takes time.. but it still all in my mind..
if im negative enough i wun recover.. God Damn It..~
Soo how to stay Positive?.. When my frens are all in e catergories "Crazy" and "Negative"..!
Which i post on my FB status and get scoldin from all of dem.. =X
They r e best seriously~ I always noe tat they standby me.. Mentally..
I can feel how much they loved me~ As they really cares~
Im tryin hard to stand up again oso becos of all tis cute frens..
I dun belief im e weak 1.. I dun wana get defeated..
Im begging to let me stand again.. One more time..
i will become stronger den ever.. and i wun be stupid again..
......... Time for medicine and i should sleep already..
x3JesJes_0938pm
She ends @
Thursday, November 1, 2012 ' 4:18 AM
1.11.2012_Thursday_0626pm
Here i m again on my blogs.. <3 font="font">
Today im gonna write down something.. Which i wana remember foreva and dun wana forget de memories..
Here i go... i may left out some.. But if uu get to read it could uu please remind me?..
How i get to noe uu?.. (Ans: From Tagged.Com)
How long have uu been in my FB?.. (Ans: For Years) Yet we din get to talk to each other even we got each other numbers in e cell phone.
Until 1 day..
Uu started to text me on yr 2012 CNY.. i remember uu becos of ur nick..
Den we started to text each other..
One fine day we meet each other and uu send me to my work place..
1st time sees uu.. All i can describe was.. *Wahs Ah Beng!* becos uu r full wif tattoos.
Follow by uu texts me every single day.. And all i could do is disturb uu and make uu feel pissed off.
But uu nv stop texting.. Until uu told me uu r interested in me..
And i started to stop all e textin and uu oso did e same thing..
But.. Dunno wat gets into my brain 1 day after a few month we din contact..
I texted uu 1st and ask uu wana go club anot..
And uu came.. i rmb i meet uu at vivo city becos we r goin to powerhouse..
And we had MAC for our dinner.. (Ur Treat) hahas!
We went to meet my frens at e brigde..
Follow by walkin to powerhouse..
Waited for soo long yet e liq was wrotten wrong date..
And we went to HollyWood @ Clark Quay..
i think we drink till super high lahs.. And uu started to confess to me again..
Tis time round i didn't really reject uu..
After tat we went home 1st.. And uu said uu wana see my adopted boy *Husky*.. (Zorro)
i say.. ok..
i can see how in love uu r wif him.. Lols!
And.. (Something Happen)..
i rmb 1 day i was having my cousin's outing..
and i texted uu tat i might like uu..
Following day.. we started to text each other.. and pissed each other off..
Uu call me on my cell and we can chat for hours..
And uu start all ur nonsense to chase me..
We went for Movies everytime we meet..
And uu will help me bring Zorro boy for walks..
And on a nite.. We took Zorro to Punggol Park..
Uu ran wif him.. And we meet a fren there.. After my fren left..
We walk around e park and finally.. i accepted to be wif uu..
Our story Starts..
I rmb we would chat on fone every nite till i go sleep..
Even uu r not in town we oso did tat every nite..
Uu will send me to work early in e morning..
Movies again..
And Pop out at my work place suddenly..
Helps me do housework on wednesday.. Hahas!
Den one day uu requested me to accompany uu on ur bday..
I agreed..
i cannot recall.. we went for dinner den movie.. Den went to Marina bay..
We walk around lookin for 7-11..
And bought e drinks and we went outside to sit on e stairs.. and tok whole nite..
After tat uu dun wana go home and ended up we r at.. some place..
Till morning uu send me home..
And e date we spend was suppose to be my menses date..
But it didn't came.. It was late..
i didn't think tat much.. soo jus continue wif my work..
and i didn't tells uu bout tat too..
i become super tired and sleeply.. i can even standing and im falling asleep..
im a person who seldom need to go toilet wen im workin.. But at tat point of time..
Everyday within 15min i needed to go 1 x..
And i smell somethin fishy wif my reaction..
i asked my fren.. and i keep tellin myself it wun be soo "Zun"..
Becos uu once told me.. And uu promised.. It will nv happen..
i continue wif it.. i went sun tanning.. and do wat i always do.. i club i drink..
i rmbing one time uu make me angry on a morning..
And after my work i recieved flower from uu.. for apologise..
And b4 my bday comin..
Uu came to clinic and pass me a happy book..
Follow by my bday present which uu search high and low..
Thanks soo much for e effort..
All of tis i see it in my heart.. But i didn't show..
Everythin was too late..
And on my bday itself..
After work i went home and check wif e preg kit..
It was e time i saw 2 lines comin out..
i feel soo happy.. yet im scare..
tat was e time im about to leave uu..
In my heart i already choosen uu..
I did wat i suppose to do.. but im soft hearted..
After my Genting trip.. Something happen..
And i really wans to give up..
At tat point of time i really wish uu would be there.. but i couldn't say anythin and all i do was tellin uu dun need..
After everythin ends.. And After my ops..
im down wif depression.. From e day itself i keep having nitemares everynite..
i couldn't sleep.. i feel soo sinful and regret..
Everything was not being smooth.. i cannot take it..
When i started to noe.. im feel tat im being cheated and tricked..
But everythin was too late becos uu had left..
uu blocked me everywher..
i couldn't find uu at all..
i feels soo down.. Super super regret and im really sorry to wat i've done..
I wana sees uu again deep down in my heart.. But i think tat was not possible..
I wana tells uu tat im sorry.. Hope uu will forgive me to wat i had done..
Tis is a punishment i guess.. i wanted to end my life once..
Cryin every single day.. Was jus soo terrible..
If time would turn back again.. I promise i will choose e right road..
Too late..
I Miss Uu~ ......
x3JesJes_0717pm
Here i m again on my blogs.. <3 font="font">
Today im gonna write down something.. Which i wana remember foreva and dun wana forget de memories..
Here i go... i may left out some.. But if uu get to read it could uu please remind me?..
How i get to noe uu?.. (Ans: From Tagged.Com)
How long have uu been in my FB?.. (Ans: For Years) Yet we din get to talk to each other even we got each other numbers in e cell phone.
Until 1 day..
Uu started to text me on yr 2012 CNY.. i remember uu becos of ur nick..
Den we started to text each other..
One fine day we meet each other and uu send me to my work place..
1st time sees uu.. All i can describe was.. *Wahs Ah Beng!* becos uu r full wif tattoos.
Follow by uu texts me every single day.. And all i could do is disturb uu and make uu feel pissed off.
But uu nv stop texting.. Until uu told me uu r interested in me..
And i started to stop all e textin and uu oso did e same thing..
But.. Dunno wat gets into my brain 1 day after a few month we din contact..
I texted uu 1st and ask uu wana go club anot..
And uu came.. i rmb i meet uu at vivo city becos we r goin to powerhouse..
And we had MAC for our dinner.. (Ur Treat) hahas!
We went to meet my frens at e brigde..
Follow by walkin to powerhouse..
Waited for soo long yet e liq was wrotten wrong date..
And we went to HollyWood @ Clark Quay..
i think we drink till super high lahs.. And uu started to confess to me again..
Tis time round i didn't really reject uu..
After tat we went home 1st.. And uu said uu wana see my adopted boy *Husky*.. (Zorro)
i say.. ok..
i can see how in love uu r wif him.. Lols!
And.. (Something Happen)..
i rmb 1 day i was having my cousin's outing..
and i texted uu tat i might like uu..
Following day.. we started to text each other.. and pissed each other off..
Uu call me on my cell and we can chat for hours..
And uu start all ur nonsense to chase me..
We went for Movies everytime we meet..
And uu will help me bring Zorro boy for walks..
And on a nite.. We took Zorro to Punggol Park..
Uu ran wif him.. And we meet a fren there.. After my fren left..
We walk around e park and finally.. i accepted to be wif uu..
Our story Starts..
I rmb we would chat on fone every nite till i go sleep..
Even uu r not in town we oso did tat every nite..
Uu will send me to work early in e morning..
Movies again..
And Pop out at my work place suddenly..
Helps me do housework on wednesday.. Hahas!
Den one day uu requested me to accompany uu on ur bday..
I agreed..
i cannot recall.. we went for dinner den movie.. Den went to Marina bay..
We walk around lookin for 7-11..
And bought e drinks and we went outside to sit on e stairs.. and tok whole nite..
After tat uu dun wana go home and ended up we r at.. some place..
Till morning uu send me home..
And e date we spend was suppose to be my menses date..
But it didn't came.. It was late..
i didn't think tat much.. soo jus continue wif my work..
and i didn't tells uu bout tat too..
i become super tired and sleeply.. i can even standing and im falling asleep..
im a person who seldom need to go toilet wen im workin.. But at tat point of time..
Everyday within 15min i needed to go 1 x..
And i smell somethin fishy wif my reaction..
i asked my fren.. and i keep tellin myself it wun be soo "Zun"..
Becos uu once told me.. And uu promised.. It will nv happen..
i continue wif it.. i went sun tanning.. and do wat i always do.. i club i drink..
i rmbing one time uu make me angry on a morning..
And after my work i recieved flower from uu.. for apologise..
And b4 my bday comin..
Uu came to clinic and pass me a happy book..
Follow by my bday present which uu search high and low..
Thanks soo much for e effort..
All of tis i see it in my heart.. But i didn't show..
Everythin was too late..
And on my bday itself..
After work i went home and check wif e preg kit..
It was e time i saw 2 lines comin out..
i feel soo happy.. yet im scare..
tat was e time im about to leave uu..
In my heart i already choosen uu..
I did wat i suppose to do.. but im soft hearted..
After my Genting trip.. Something happen..
And i really wans to give up..
At tat point of time i really wish uu would be there.. but i couldn't say anythin and all i do was tellin uu dun need..
After everythin ends.. And After my ops..
im down wif depression.. From e day itself i keep having nitemares everynite..
i couldn't sleep.. i feel soo sinful and regret..
Everything was not being smooth.. i cannot take it..
When i started to noe.. im feel tat im being cheated and tricked..
But everythin was too late becos uu had left..
uu blocked me everywher..
i couldn't find uu at all..
i feels soo down.. Super super regret and im really sorry to wat i've done..
I wana sees uu again deep down in my heart.. But i think tat was not possible..
I wana tells uu tat im sorry.. Hope uu will forgive me to wat i had done..
Tis is a punishment i guess.. i wanted to end my life once..
Cryin every single day.. Was jus soo terrible..
If time would turn back again.. I promise i will choose e right road..
Too late..
I Miss Uu~ ......
x3JesJes_0717pm
She ends @
Thursday, October 18, 2012 ' 7:22 AM
Heart Feels Like Raining Heavily~
18.10.2012_Thursday_1000pm
心情就像在下大雨..越下越大〜
我以为我恨你可是原来我更恨我自己..
我好后悔〜
你让我好后悔我做出的决定..
你不再爱我了，是吗？
说好了会陪我度过所有难关，是假的？
说好的一切都不是真的？
你们和好了？你回家住了？
为什么又回到那时候的感觉？
十点回家..到学校哪里了..背着那个你拿来当借口的包包..到那个家里某些时间不可以回短信不可以讲电话..哈哈〜好像吧？
是你的一举一动让我产生了这些疑问〜我没有错吧？
好难过..你明明知道可是你没有一点点的让我好过一些..
说好换了iPhone就会放回我们的照片..
换回改的contact name..
这些小小的细节我都记得〜
可是你一样都没有做到..
告诉我要用这么样的心情来面对？
我不明白为什么只会用讲的？
你的爱的观念是什么？
为什么说爱我但却让我一点点也感觉不到？
我从来没有要求过什么事..
只是要你让我感觉我被爱了我是重要的..就这么样的简单..很难吗？
我要的是那时候你求我不要离开你的那个你..
掉下眼泪的你..
对我好好的你..
让我觉得有你在是件幸福的事的你..
发生这么多事情你就只认定你一个人累..我不是人？
我当时会选择离开的理由你还是不明白..
我明白我没有选择的要等三年..
可是你也该让我觉得等待是值得的〜但你没有..
还记得那首歌吗？好像变得没有意义了耶..
痛哭了一场..还要微笑着按Sms..证明了我已经到了最高境界..
x3JesJes_1030pm
心情就像在下大雨..越下越大〜
我以为我恨你可是原来我更恨我自己..
我好后悔〜
你让我好后悔我做出的决定..
你不再爱我了，是吗？
说好了会陪我度过所有难关，是假的？
说好的一切都不是真的？
你们和好了？你回家住了？
为什么又回到那时候的感觉？
十点回家..到学校哪里了..背着那个你拿来当借口的包包..到那个家里某些时间不可以回短信不可以讲电话..哈哈〜好像吧？
是你的一举一动让我产生了这些疑问〜我没有错吧？
好难过..你明明知道可是你没有一点点的让我好过一些..
说好换了iPhone就会放回我们的照片..
换回改的contact name..
这些小小的细节我都记得〜
可是你一样都没有做到..
告诉我要用这么样的心情来面对？
我不明白为什么只会用讲的？
你的爱的观念是什么？
为什么说爱我但却让我一点点也感觉不到？
我从来没有要求过什么事..
只是要你让我感觉我被爱了我是重要的..就这么样的简单..很难吗？
我要的是那时候你求我不要离开你的那个你..
掉下眼泪的你..
对我好好的你..
让我觉得有你在是件幸福的事的你..
发生这么多事情你就只认定你一个人累..我不是人？
我当时会选择离开的理由你还是不明白..
我明白我没有选择的要等三年..
可是你也该让我觉得等待是值得的〜但你没有..
还记得那首歌吗？好像变得没有意义了耶..
痛哭了一场..还要微笑着按Sms..证明了我已经到了最高境界..
x3JesJes_1030pm
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Saturday, October 13, 2012 ' 9:28 AM
I Just Dun Wan To Be Alone
13.10.2012_Saturday_1158pm
开心的时间过的真快..
晚餐吃的好饱好饱..
可是..即将面临寂寞了..
还以为今天他会陪我过夜..
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday..
做工没空不可以，我可以谅解..
可是今天是Saturday and Sunday dun need work oo..
我还是一个人睡..
不具名的悲伤..
整个礼拜我的心情是差到可以的..
我被伤到了..
每天服药来控制自己的情绪好让我能睡觉..
辛苦..好辛苦..
从每天睡在一起变成一个礼拜两次到现在一个礼拜都没有一次..
觉得自己越来越可悲..
可笑的是..我还以为他今天会陪我..Hais！
自己睡吧..不拥挤也不错..
安慰安慰一下自己也好..
他好像永远不知道我要的是什么..
x3JesJes_1243am
开心的时间过的真快..
晚餐吃的好饱好饱..
可是..即将面临寂寞了..
还以为今天他会陪我过夜..
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday..
做工没空不可以，我可以谅解..
可是今天是Saturday and Sunday dun need work oo..
我还是一个人睡..
不具名的悲伤..
整个礼拜我的心情是差到可以的..
我被伤到了..
每天服药来控制自己的情绪好让我能睡觉..
辛苦..好辛苦..
从每天睡在一起变成一个礼拜两次到现在一个礼拜都没有一次..
觉得自己越来越可悲..
可笑的是..我还以为他今天会陪我..Hais！
自己睡吧..不拥挤也不错..
安慰安慰一下自己也好..
他好像永远不知道我要的是什么..
x3JesJes_1243am
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