Wednesday, October 20, 2010 ' 10:22 AM
21.10.2010_Thursday_0123am
=( Super Sad Cum Stress !
ii totally cannot control moiiself .
Totally noo control .
Soo not mii . . ii m not used to be liike tat .
Y m ii growiin weaker ?
always can hiide feeliin well ders wo . . Tiis tiime round Shii Baii lers .
Here iishx e onlii place ii can de-stress bahs .
Wat ii cannot sae out from moii mouth ii onlii can type here .
Berii Lousy ya ? . .
Pple always lost lers den regret .
Maybe jiiu shii bcos got mii tiis kiinda of pple .
Wanted and should sae ders all keep iin heart .
Dun wan and should not sae ders all sae out .
ii deserve to suffer moiiself .
Seriiously ii diin noe ii already fall soo deeply for tiis guy lers .
ii thiink ii m e most S.T.U piid Ger iin e world lers .
ii nehberr learn to express moiiself good iin actiions and words .
Everytiime onlii act siiao siiao diisturb .
And nehberr done thiings well ~
ii rmb e 1st dae together was . .
He meet mii for moviie . At niite ii got diinner for father's day celebratiion .
He come moii hse fetch mii to AMK hub to buy Tiickets .
On our way he jus hold moii hand . .
Asked hiim y he hold moii hand . And Tiis boii sae . . " Scare Uu Fall mahs ."
ii laughx . Cos ii feel soo rubbiishx of wat he sae .
but e hand nehberr let go of moii .
Feel soo sweet . But ii nehberr sae b4 .
Den went to meet all of dem for diinner .
After tat we went moviie den go home .
ii rmb e dae ii was bout to go on holiiday . .
he was workiin but iinsiist to send mii to aiirport . =)
at 1st ii told hiim iishx okiies moii fren and ii wiill share cabby .
Den he nehberr giif up stiill wan fetch mii go .
and ii agree to iit . So0 siilly ~
He ate Mac for hiis lunch at e aiirport .
When he see mii off . . wo hao she bu der oo .
Everydae at Macau dou got thiink dao hiim . .
Gu yii Onliine Msn at Macau . Jus to see whether he got onliine anot .
Sms hiim w/o thiinkiin how much moii biill wiill gonna cost mii wen ii m back iin sg .
fiinally back to Home land .
1st thiing iin miind iishx to see hiim outsiide aiirport .
=) Super happy cos he really there .
But ii feels bad . cos e weather was soo damn hot .
and he was early den moii fliight .
*Gan Dong*
Qii shii ii can rmb all hiis good to mii . .
But ii nehberr once told hiim ii m super happy to haf hiim by moii siide .
ii noe how much he teng mii den ii teng hiim .
Cos he show mii but ii diin .
ii Rmb tat dae ii brought MarbLe Boii Home . .
ii thiink for soo long to deciide whether to buy hiim back home .
He gave mii adviise . .
Brought home lers soo happy .
But . . thiings started to change .
everytiime onlii can thiink of marble boii and neglect hiim lers .
Super wrong actiion .
ii dun blame hiim for blamiin mii .
Cos ii noe ii m wrong lers .
Our story ended not long ago . .
Blame on moii S.T.U piid -ness ~
Careless ~ and Noo braiin .
ii got nothiin to sae .
nehberr regret loviin and beiin wiif tiis boii bahs .
tat's all ii can sae .
he teach mii alot of thiings .
ii dunno ii wiill learn fast anot .
Slowly slowly bahs . .
ii need more tiime to let go of hiim .
ii thiink ii need a long break . .
Tiis tiime round how long mus ii take ? . .
Last 1 ii took almost a year . .
ii dunno how long iit wiill be . .
Pple always sae tiime wiill heal all e paiin and hurts and unhappy thiingy .
ii always beliief iit tiis way .
thanks to all moii Buddiies , frens , siista , brothers , cousiins and famiily ~
they always there to support mii care for mii wen ii m down .
Help mii walk thru all e thiings ii cannot do iit alone .
although they wiill not do iin actiions .
But iin words ii noe already .
Sometiime ii noe ders but ii always liike to act dunno .
F.U.C.K.E.R mii ~
ii m jus an attiitude freak ~
Cannot stand moiiself ~
Always act carefree liike noo body busiiness ~ . .
Liike to keep unhappy thiings to moii heart .
ii cannot rmb wen diid ii ever sae thiings tat ii wana sae from moii heart .
ii wanted to tell hiim tat ii feel lucky tat uu r at moii siide wen ii got niitemare .
but ii diidn't .
ii wanted to tell hiim wo zhen de hao aii nii wen ii feels how much he teng mii .
but ii diidn't .
Alot alot alot more ii diidn't and ii miissed wen ii got e chance .
O.o not early for mii to contiinue lers . .
Although today iishx ii work half way come home one .
ii got lots more to type .
But moii S.T.M iishx gettiin bad to worst ~
Ytd on bed thiink dao ders all gone ~ . .
Watchiin at marble jiiu remiinds mii of hiim .
See e cage e pee pan e grass ball e stone e food holder e wood block makes mii remiinds of hiim .
See e shiirt hangiing there remiinds mii of hiim .
And worst thiing iishx hiis piillow stiill at home . .
every niite besiide mii sleepiin .
F.M.L ~!
Was shocked but happy to see hiim sms mii Jus now .
e concern from hiim was liike too much .
ii cannot take iit .
Cos ii dun deserve anymore .
ii reply hiim ( Zhan shii bu yao duii wo na me hao ke yii mahs ? Liike tat ii cannot let go .)
Tears falliin down wen ii reply .
Look at wat ii reply ? ha . . Always those super wrong and stupiid ders thiings .
ii jiiu shii always liike tat .
caii huii zuo bu hao one thiing . . . . . . . .
*Alot more iin miind*
x3Jesjes_0252am
=( Super Sad Cum Stress !
ii totally cannot control moiiself .
Totally noo control .
Soo not mii . . ii m not used to be liike tat .
Y m ii growiin weaker ?
always can hiide feeliin well ders wo . . Tiis tiime round Shii Baii lers .
Here iishx e onlii place ii can de-stress bahs .
Wat ii cannot sae out from moii mouth ii onlii can type here .
Berii Lousy ya ? . .
Pple always lost lers den regret .
Maybe jiiu shii bcos got mii tiis kiinda of pple .
Wanted and should sae ders all keep iin heart .
Dun wan and should not sae ders all sae out .
ii deserve to suffer moiiself .
Seriiously ii diin noe ii already fall soo deeply for tiis guy lers .
ii thiink ii m e most S.T.U piid Ger iin e world lers .
ii nehberr learn to express moiiself good iin actiions and words .
Everytiime onlii act siiao siiao diisturb .
And nehberr done thiings well ~
ii rmb e 1st dae together was . .
He meet mii for moviie . At niite ii got diinner for father's day celebratiion .
He come moii hse fetch mii to AMK hub to buy Tiickets .
On our way he jus hold moii hand . .
Asked hiim y he hold moii hand . And Tiis boii sae . . " Scare Uu Fall mahs ."
ii laughx . Cos ii feel soo rubbiishx of wat he sae .
but e hand nehberr let go of moii .
Feel soo sweet . But ii nehberr sae b4 .
Den went to meet all of dem for diinner .
After tat we went moviie den go home .
ii rmb e dae ii was bout to go on holiiday . .
he was workiin but iinsiist to send mii to aiirport . =)
at 1st ii told hiim iishx okiies moii fren and ii wiill share cabby .
Den he nehberr giif up stiill wan fetch mii go .
and ii agree to iit . So0 siilly ~
He ate Mac for hiis lunch at e aiirport .
When he see mii off . . wo hao she bu der oo .
Everydae at Macau dou got thiink dao hiim . .
Gu yii Onliine Msn at Macau . Jus to see whether he got onliine anot .
Sms hiim w/o thiinkiin how much moii biill wiill gonna cost mii wen ii m back iin sg .
fiinally back to Home land .
1st thiing iin miind iishx to see hiim outsiide aiirport .
=) Super happy cos he really there .
But ii feels bad . cos e weather was soo damn hot .
and he was early den moii fliight .
*Gan Dong*
Qii shii ii can rmb all hiis good to mii . .
But ii nehberr once told hiim ii m super happy to haf hiim by moii siide .
ii noe how much he teng mii den ii teng hiim .
Cos he show mii but ii diin .
ii Rmb tat dae ii brought MarbLe Boii Home . .
ii thiink for soo long to deciide whether to buy hiim back home .
He gave mii adviise . .
Brought home lers soo happy .
But . . thiings started to change .
everytiime onlii can thiink of marble boii and neglect hiim lers .
Super wrong actiion .
ii dun blame hiim for blamiin mii .
Cos ii noe ii m wrong lers .
Our story ended not long ago . .
Blame on moii S.T.U piid -ness ~
Careless ~ and Noo braiin .
ii got nothiin to sae .
nehberr regret loviin and beiin wiif tiis boii bahs .
tat's all ii can sae .
he teach mii alot of thiings .
ii dunno ii wiill learn fast anot .
Slowly slowly bahs . .
ii need more tiime to let go of hiim .
ii thiink ii need a long break . .
Tiis tiime round how long mus ii take ? . .
Last 1 ii took almost a year . .
ii dunno how long iit wiill be . .
Pple always sae tiime wiill heal all e paiin and hurts and unhappy thiingy .
ii always beliief iit tiis way .
thanks to all moii Buddiies , frens , siista , brothers , cousiins and famiily ~
they always there to support mii care for mii wen ii m down .
Help mii walk thru all e thiings ii cannot do iit alone .
although they wiill not do iin actiions .
But iin words ii noe already .
Sometiime ii noe ders but ii always liike to act dunno .
F.U.C.K.E.R mii ~
ii m jus an attiitude freak ~
Cannot stand moiiself ~
Always act carefree liike noo body busiiness ~ . .
Liike to keep unhappy thiings to moii heart .
ii cannot rmb wen diid ii ever sae thiings tat ii wana sae from moii heart .
ii wanted to tell hiim tat ii feel lucky tat uu r at moii siide wen ii got niitemare .
but ii diidn't .
ii wanted to tell hiim wo zhen de hao aii nii wen ii feels how much he teng mii .
but ii diidn't .
Alot alot alot more ii diidn't and ii miissed wen ii got e chance .
O.o not early for mii to contiinue lers . .
Although today iishx ii work half way come home one .
ii got lots more to type .
But moii S.T.M iishx gettiin bad to worst ~
Ytd on bed thiink dao ders all gone ~ . .
Watchiin at marble jiiu remiinds mii of hiim .
See e cage e pee pan e grass ball e stone e food holder e wood block makes mii remiinds of hiim .
See e shiirt hangiing there remiinds mii of hiim .
And worst thiing iishx hiis piillow stiill at home . .
every niite besiide mii sleepiin .
F.M.L ~!
Was shocked but happy to see hiim sms mii Jus now .
e concern from hiim was liike too much .
ii cannot take iit .
Cos ii dun deserve anymore .
ii reply hiim ( Zhan shii bu yao duii wo na me hao ke yii mahs ? Liike tat ii cannot let go .)
Tears falliin down wen ii reply .
Look at wat ii reply ? ha . . Always those super wrong and stupiid ders thiings .
ii jiiu shii always liike tat .
caii huii zuo bu hao one thiing . . . . . . . .
*Alot more iin miind*
x3Jesjes_0252am
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